Why Would I Never Commit Suicide?

Due to my impatience, I have never experienced a life-changing surprise. It's a serious matter to me that none of my friends have ever thought of surprising me, unlike how others' friends have done. Although I compare each of you to others, I know you all adore me, and that's why I would never contemplate taking my own life. Sorry for digressing.

Firstly, I want to ask you, the reader who came here after reading the subject, if you are alright? Are you struggling to please people and secure your future? I overheard someone saying, "It's okay," somewhere, and it's alright not to feel okay sometimes. Do others accept us? Well, that was just a joke; have a moment to relax. I meant to say, take a chill pill. By the way, where does this saying come from? Can you find it at a nearby medical store? And if so, what's the price? Do you truly want to end your life, or is this a way to cope with your suicidal thoughts?

Okay, I don't expect an answer, but I assume, or rather guess, that you might have thought about suicide in the past since you chose to read my essay. Maybe you were more interested in understanding why I've never considered it. But let's pause for a moment and reflect on why I'm writing this post. What if no one reads it? What if no one cares about the reason why I'll never harm myself? All my effort in writing this blog would be in vain. Yet, maybe it's okay, as Momma said, whether anyone reads it or not, I should write because I wanted to, right?

Perhaps you guys can recommend some books for me to read. I'm not really asking; I'm pleading. If any of you who read this article could suggest a book, I'd be grateful. You can contact me at anjalisingh27312@gmail.com if you can help.

Okay, I might have rambled on too much. Let's try to figure out why I won't consider suicide, even with all the hardships in my life. Even if things continue to get worse, the unknown possibility of what tomorrow holds keeps me curious. How could I predict what will happen if I end my life today? I want to know if I will succeed in life, whom I will marry, and how much I will learn in the days to come. Besides, there's another reason for not contemplating suicide – my extreme cowardice. The thought of hanging myself and embracing death requires tremendous strength, something I don't possess. Who could be determined enough to take their own life? Is it about preventing things from getting worse or lacking the strength to fight and survive in the worst scenarios?

Alright, that's the end of this article. I sincerely hope no one ever considers ending their life. I pray for everyone's happiness and ask for the strength to endure even in the toughest circumstances

                                                                       - ANJALI SINGH